Shit in your hair.

The demo sounds of Against Me!'s song "Shit Stroll" from their demo Vivada Vis rings in my ear as I humbly write this.

I had a panic attack last night, my first one in quite some time. I was at the cakewalk in our town when it happened. I was walking with Fro and Sam through the immense crowd of people. Crowds don't scare me, I like people. I like showcasing my assery whenever I get the chance, really... but when it's a crowd of people I know I feel different.

I freeze. I freak out. I start having trouble breathing. My breathing halts and white spots begin to appear in front of me. I lose my balance a bit, but nothing that anyone would notice. I curse indefinitely about how much "I fucking hate these people" before I retaliate away from the mental battle I conjure. I feel them staring even though I know they could give a fuck less about me and what I'm doing. I feel judged by complete strangers who I attempt to ignore. I give in.